Well, this last week has had its ups and downs, obviously. Honestly, there’s been more down than up, but I’m trying to stay positive and constructive.

I think today, it hit me that he’s leaving the house …and me…

I’ve been kind of avoiding thinking too hard about that all week. It’s an inevitability, considering the decision to divorce. Also, it’s best that it happens sooner. All week, I’ve been chatting with friends, working and mostly trying not to fall too deep into thinking about this – not as an avoidance tactic, but just so that I acknowledge the reality and move on without falling into the “depths of despair”. The last thing I need is to wallow any longer in it.

Of course, thinking about other things to avoid thinking about this leads to OVERthinking. But that’s not so bad, is it? It has led to a funny misunderstanding or two, but nothing too bad.

I keep making plans as to how I’m going to start my life again. Honestly, I just don’t know when I’ll be ready to start.